thank you for your time. what you say makes sense but i think we are on different pages of the same book.

im asking this question so others may find their own answers.

ive resigned my self to this because i believe if i apply myself 100% to my ideas and beliefs they will imprint onto others ideas of me

You are the "you" you know,knew, and will potentially know. You are also the "you" that everyone else knows,knew,and will potentially know.
Try to think of a human being in 4 dimensional flux from birth to death.

I belive that all things are exactly what they are belived to be but only to the beliver individually do they form. Though we may share an experience you and I may see different parts or the totality. Though because we use similar enough language we may appear to agree whole heartedly in our discriptions.